Pink Chick---GEM

Tuesday, August 02, 2005

sobrang dami nang nangyari sa buhay ko ngayon. in a span of 3 months, everything seemed to be so difficult. everyday is hell. primarily because of law school. i hardly get complete hours of sleep. hapit sa gimik. basta my world turned upside down, totally! i never thought law school will be this tough! oh well, though i'm really having a hard time adjusting and getting a grip of my new world, i'm actually starting to love it. actually, what i love the most in law school is going to school everyday, daily allowance, you know, the stuff that i receive when i was still in lasalle and st scho. hahaha! school is all about friends, right?! ayun! i have a new set of friends na and they're sooo great! grabe! wala na ako masasabi pa sa blockmates ko... most of us bonded together in a snap! hehehe...

most of the time, pag walang teacher, lalo na pag monday and thursday (dahil wala si brown- bitch!) tambay lang sa classroom, nag- iingay, nagnggugulo, kumakanta.. hehehe.. parang asa lasalle pa din. hahaha! pero syempre, tangina sa workload!!! waaaaaaaaah! information overload! everyday is finals exam day! at ang matindi don, oral! kasi graded recitation everyday eh. hahaha!! tangena! kelan kaya ako makakabawi??! waaaaaaaaah!!!

they're the people who motivate me to study, in order to stay in san beda...

they're the reason why i study. i want to stay in beda to be with them...

basta.... sa 3 buwan na yon, maraming nadagdag, maraming nabawas, maraming nagbago... nadagdagan ng kaibigan, nabawasan ang pagka- maton, nagbago pati minamahal....

*wink*

miss mah friends sooo much!!!!

nga pala, thanks for everything miguel ko!!! =)

__Bright Sphere]]* at 9:57 PM

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Tuesday, May 24, 2005

This day is all about hassle! imagine, i have to be at Nestle at 7:30 in the morning. i prepared everything for that PK workshop. well, it was fun coz i got the chance to be with anton and sonny. hehe (patay ako pag nakikita pala nila toh. as if!) anyway, i'm actually here in school (DLSU) coz i have to file the clearance form for that fuckin' San Beda enrollment. waaaaaaaaaaaaaah! eto na! thiz iz it! wala na talaga akong magagawa.... =( oh well... anyway, what happend??? ummm... yesterday, i don't know why the hell am i thinking of Kid?! it was like the whole day i was thinking of him. actually everything started las Saturday. i saw a guy who actually looked like Kid, pero pag nakatalikod lang.. then i don't know... basta it's like an unexplainable phenomenon! then just yesterday, i was in the jeep when the guy entered kinda looked like him.. i mean the porma... well, ok lang pero everytime i look at the guy, talagang pormang Kid! most especially the shoes, man! while laughing my heart out... kumanta ba naman!!! "...it started when we were younger you were mine...you will always be my boo..." tangena tama ba??!!!! waaaaaaaaaaah!!! grabehan na ito!!! pero sige, ayos lang.... as if... i got home. changed clothes, turned the computer on, the tv on. in the middle of my night rituals, my first text message i received since i got home... number lang... ui quote! "it's hard to fall in love again when you're still attached to your past..you must learn to let go & open your heart to someone else. it's not easy to do pero minsan.. KAILANGAN.." 09184518576... wew.... si Kid yun ah! shet naman... *heart thumpin* ano ba!!!!! tanagena anong nanyayari???!!!! and why the hell did he text that?? what for??? para sa akin ba yan or para sa kanya?? sheeet... anyway, i grabbed the chance and replied..ayun, nagtext kami for a while then that's it.. parang friends lang.. friendly text, pero deep inside i know that we both feel the same way... we still have feelings for each other but we should take things easy. we don't know where these feelings will take us pero time will tell if we are ready....

shige na! hafta go na!!! basta yan na lang muna!!

drop by the chatter link and message me! =p

__Bright Sphere]]* at 3:47 PM

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Tuesday, May 17, 2005

yeahness!!! kahit na ang gulo gulo ng buhay ko gnayon dahil lang sa dalawang oldies, eh ok naman dahil angawa ko yung gusto nila. pero the question is, gusto ko ba? i am always thinking..."buti na lang sumonod ako..." dadating ba ako sa point na masasabi ko yan sa mga anak and pamangkin ko, tulad ng mga sinasabi ng mga tito ko ngayon? well, hope everything will turn out just fine.

grabe, bilib talaga ako sa Cabangon family. wala lang. they are the people who you can be super proud of. though they lost their dad at an early age, and endured the ka- "donahan" of their mother, they still grew up as the ideal people. grabe. wala alng. words can't explain how proud and lucky i am to be a Cabangon. sana nga lang lolo job, the paragon of the Cabangon urban legend, is here to see us grow into beautiful people.

wala pa ako masyadong masabi ngayon kasi im in a hurry. im here sa powerplant. it;s luch break so i got the chance to post. hehehe. jologs kasi pc sa house kaya nga i want e laptop na eh!!!!

people sa NY!! can i have a laptop as a grad gift and a congratulatory gift an rin??

=D

__Bright Sphere]]* at 1:08 PM

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Saturday, May 14, 2005

well, well, well. my parents got what they wanted. i passed San Beda Law School. i was actually wait listed because but they said there are slots so i immediately accepted the opportunity. haaay... ano na gagawin ko? eto na eh.. shet gem.. prepare to become a losyang! shet man! mawawalan ako ng social life! eh that's what i wanted pa naman! whew! di naman sila excited noh?? maghanap na daw ako ng dorm. waaaaaaaaaaaah! tnagena gigimik alng ako eh! i need a car!! haha!!! pero seriously, i really need one. now i can say that i have to enroll in driving school. shet! i really want to make money so i will be able to get even a 2nd hand car and a laptop. these two are on top of my wishlist. haaaaaaaaay.... ewan ko.. i sad kasi "if i passed law school, maybe it's for me" ano ka ngayon, gem. pinasa ka ni Kuya Jess, anong gagawin mo??? shet i need mone pa naman. mag working student na lang ako! haha! as if kaya ko dba?? oh well... till here na lang muna.. magkukwento pa ako ng mga upcoming chuvanesses coz tonight, another party... hehehe

i miss my baby Nathan!!! =(

__Bright Sphere]]* at 11:02 AM

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Sunday, May 08, 2005

i just changed my blog skin. it's cute eh. wala lang. hehe.. haay nako, anna's in Puerto now. actually, dayang's also inviting us to go to Puerto next week. 3 days, 2.5K lang buhay na. hmmm... let me see... hehehe.. bahala na.. last nite we celebrated mom's day sa newton. wala lang, super laught rip talaga! kasi naman si dad eh! kung ano ano sinasabi! kesyo kami daw yung pinakamaliit sa mga lavalle. ok lang! at least maitno kami noh! haha! ewan ko ba kung baket ganon! i mean, baket about sa mga magpipinsan yung napag kwentuhan namin. at get this, si tito sep sobrang naiyak na sa kakatawa. buti nga yun eh. at least he'd be sleeping with a smile on his face though his family's away. super todo chat tlaaga kaami last nite using tito sep's laptop and unlimited internet! wew! ang saya. mejo nakakahiya nga kasi hot seat ko yun. si tita dek lang ang nakaupo kasi ka chat nya si tita pinks. you know, gurl/mommie talk. oh well...

we got home na about 3 am! ganon ka grabe! as in tawanan lang the whole stay there! jul and i tried to contact Nathan and Noel if they arrived na in Quatar. we were so excited kaya! tas yun nga, we got the chance to talk to them pero naubusan agad ng load. tinawagan ako pero di ko na nasagot so ngayon morning ako nag load pero i bet tulog pa yung mga yun! haaaay miss ko na talaga yun Nathan na yun! sana makausap ko sya today..

__Bright Sphere]]* at 11:21 AM

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Saturday, May 07, 2005

my work in Nestle was extended. i dont know if im supposed to be happy about it pero since ive got nothing to do for the meantime, that's fine with me na rin siguro. i get paid for it naman eh. =) i never got the chance to see sir miggy na pero sir paolo's still around. hehe. yaan mo sya! after tita res left for New York, eeverything changed na. super boring and lonely. kasi naman, lola, tin, tsoks, and tita pinks went to NY din for the whole month of May. hopefully lang tita pinky would come home. anyway, yun nga. B O R E D lahat ng mga tao. pero good thing na lang my cousins sa mom side nandito. i mean, Nathan and Noel, my most gwapo cousins among the rest, arrived from quatar. grabe talaga! haaaaaaaay. they were the best in my worst summer. good thing na lang we got the chance to be with them kahit for 4 days lang. we enjoyed every minute together. kay jul si Noel ever since talaga, tas kami ni Nathan. super love ko talaga yung kid na yan! pero ngayon they're leaving na. haaaay. naiiyak na nga ako kanina nung kausap ko si Nathan. haaay, puro yun lang talaga masabi ko. i cant say anything more kasi super sad ako. sila din nga super sad kasi nga they weren't expecting na uwi sila agad. basta wala na ako masabi.

Noel- YETBO ROCKS! miss you na talaga!!! i know you're not into internet pero hopefully Nathan will inform you. miss ko na tawanan moments naten.. Stardance...... P*&%#$@! pataba ka! dapat pogi pa din ikaw paguwi dito!

Nathan- baby ko!!! miss na miss na miss na miss na kita sobra sobra!!!! wish you were here! miss ko na hugs and kisses mo!! dont worry, pagbalik mo dito, mas madami pang kisses and hugs!!!! love u so much!!! *mwah* *mwah* *mwah**mwah* pataba ka din! yung promise mo ah!!! basta let's keep our promises! no tattoos, no more pierceings please!!! dapat gwapo pa din baby ko pag uwi dito! *mwah* *mwah* *mwah**mwah* dadating din juniper mo para maalala mo ko! waaah! =(

behave kayong dalawa ah! we'll wait for you! love ya!!!

__Bright Sphere]]* at 1:32 PM

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Saturday, April 30, 2005

Mark is a quintessence of the cliché “kung gusto may paraan, kung ayaw may dahilan”.

Isn’t that the right thing to say? It fits his attitude perfectly. I mean, he is the type of person that you’ll see the effort if he wants something, and immediately finds a way to turn down something that gets in the way of what he wants. I know this because we’ve been together for like 3 years? Not as if we had a relationship or anything. We’re friends, block mates, and in those 3 years, I’ve spent 7 solid months with him. This is pure friendship, if you’re thinking anything else aside from what I just said. As in everyday of that freaking 7 months, we’re together! He would throw pillows and trinkets at me so that I’d wake up. Dad even marked our sleeping bag as Mark’s bed. We cook dinner when our parents are out. Actually he does the cooking to dishwashing. He’s been with us the whole summer. Even the people in New York know him very well because he’s never missed a family event. He’s been to every single house party in Newton. He became one of the Ravens team. He even attended Kid’s party! Haha! J. He was the only “friend” who got the chance to step in our ancestral house in Quezon. In school, he always waits for me after my class. I wait for him after his practices for his events in school, and didn’t miss one. On Mondays, we hang out in UM until 7 pm so we can get a ride home with Ryan, his best friend. We go home together, he stays at our house until 11 pm and kuya Don picks him up there. He calls up when he gets home. It seemed like we never ran out of stories to tell and lessons to share. We hang out in Glorietta every weekend. See a movie, eat dinner, kid around, look around, wander. We shop together, cry together, get mad one after the other.

Candy magazine called him up and asked to come for a photo shoot for he was voted as 15th of the 50 Candy Cuties of the year. We went together and I answered the questions for him.

His ex got jealous because she thought Mark was courting me. Our own friends thought we’re together. His friends thought I’m his girlfriend. But still Mark doesn’t consider me as a close friend. Hehe. How ironic.

Walk in the rain.

Everything changed when he left.

I’m not expecting anything. I just want him back…. As the one who came to me from the start.

Everything I said are ghosts that haunt me every night. The memories linger, and it hurts. The friendship that I thought would continue to grow was put to an end. And I hate it. I hate the feeling but eventually I’m actually starting to embrace it.

Things for me are too good to be true.

Ey! If Jul’s not serious about the thing she said about you that she’s doesn’t want you to come with us or anything like that, well, I am dead serious about it. Get the picture?? Quit it, dude! Tangena tama na paasa, chong!

__Bright Sphere]]* at 11:16 AM

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